Hopes, Dreams & Expectations

"Did you ever feel that just by jumping on a plane,
 All your cares world drop away, and you'd be born again..." ~ Holidays in Eden

As my 'African Adventure' is now less than two weeks away, this penultimate blog prior to my journey deals with my varying emotions and thoughts, as my trip to Kenya beckons.
I am very optimistic about the adventure that lies before me, whilst attempting to remain realistic about my expectations.
I am unbelievably excited about experiencing an undiscovered land and a brand new culture.
I am filled with anticpation whilst trying not to let my thoughts run away with me, as I strive to stay focussed by living in the moment.
I have sense of nervousness about finally meeting Nancy, her family and friends, but I have high hopes about our future together, as I dream about a happy, peaceful life; a new start and a new love.
I remain an old, hopeless romantic who wears his heart on his sleeve, with the vision of walking off into the sunset hand-in-hand. And finally, I am full of joy, which is not only an emotion, but also very aptly the name of Nancy's beautiful daughter (see below).

When I started writing my blogs a few years ago, the first series, 'My Spiritual Journey To Find A Home' concentrated on all my movements as I sought to change locations in my bid to find a place where I felt I truly belonged. Ultimately I resolved my understanding of the whole process by concluding that the journey itself was my 'home', and that is was just meant to be this way. Well, maybe, just maybe, my search is now over?

This adventure is going to be my first proper overseas holiday for five years, so without meaning to sound too arrogant or modest, I feel that I deserve this break, especially after what I've been through, and also after working so hard for the opportunity ~ hopefully, nobody will begrudge me a small slice of happiness? I also know that it's about time that my luck changed where romance is concerned, so Nancy is a much appreciated young, beautiful lady. I need to find some inner peace, and I seek a place of tranquility, to share with someone special. The past five years have actually been quite a struggle personally and financially. I had to start again with absolutely nothing; no home, no job, no money, and no woman, but I've slowly built everything back up, and got my life back together. I may not have much with regards to wealth or material possessions, but I do appreciate life and I find myself in a much happier place...which is down to you, Nancy Tubah ♥ ~ I may be poor in life, but I am rich in love ♥
I would also like to thank all those great friends who have been so supportive with regards to my current and future plans, and as the title of my blog displays, for supporting me with my 'Hopes, Dreams & Expectations'.

I'll leave you with an extract from, 'Manuscript Found In Accra', by Paulo Coelho...

"It's nice to dream that we will have plenty of time in the future to do our travelling and that, one day, we will travel. It cheers us up because we know that we are capable of doing more than we do. Dreaming carries no risks. The dangerous thing is trying to transform your dreams into reality..."

I'm never gonna wonder 'what if...', as I intend to follow my dreams and take a risk.
Until next time, when I'll post my final blog prior to my journey...be safe & take care.

Steve Muskett