A Leap Of Faith...

"Finally appreciating the wonders of an iPhone: WhatsAPP & Skype in particular...thanks for reaching out Nanshu'...!"
These were my comments on a recent Facebook post, along with the additional comment,
"...it took a lot of courage & a leap of faith, but hope springs eternal..."

My last 'African Adventure' blog shared the sad news that my romance with Nancy had ended, but as some of you may be aware, this isn't necessarily the case after all.
How has this happened, you may well ask?
Well, as stated above, it took a lot of courage and a leap of faith on her part to reach out to me in the first place. A very close friend of mine who I've been looking out for in recent months, and offering my support to, shares an appropriate phrase with me regarding her own situation which concerns 'growing a set of balls'. I can now testify that Nancy has definitely grown a 'pair', and I will always admire her and respect her for that. She initially sent me a belated birthday wish, and things just escalated from there. With the introduction of modern technology finally into my life, communicating with her is proving so much more rewarding than previously, which certainly helps to give us a chance with conducting a long distance relationship. But we both know that there are problems which lie ahead...

Going back to my last blog, I always felt uncomfortable about not ending things 'face-to-face', as I like to think that I do possess a set of balls big enough and man enough to have done this. I also stated that I felt conflicted whilst acknowledging that as one door closes, maybe another door opens up. It's understandable to remain conflicted as there are so many mixed emotions and unanswered questions surrounding the future, and how we can make it work, as well as my existing life in the UK, both professionally and personally. There are always further complications to face, as my close friend will no doubt testify...but if it's meant to be, then it will work out. If not, then so be it, and at least we tried.

I just wanted to confirm to any doubters out there, that whilst feeling conflicted emotionally, I am still prepared to see where this relationship goes, despite the obvious obstacles which lie ahead.
I remain an optimist, whilst retaining a sense of realism, and I'll always wear my heart on my sleeve as a silly, old, hopeless romantic! Time will tell as it all plays out...we've just got to go with the flow and seize the day! Carpe Diem!

Finally, a big thanks to Nanshu' for breaking the silence; to Elona for always providing me her loving support; to Curph & Chappers for the beers and their advice; for Josie for putting a roof over my head...and to my similarly conflicted friend for all her laughter and tears!

Take care & stay safe.
Steve Muskett